What is Justice?

What is Justice?

What is Justice?

This concept, in many different forms, has been rolling around my mind for many years as I was rising out of the suffering and anger and angst and pain and confusion of my childhood traumas and what the matrix or the game or the story did with that. 

As I got older and spoke about my experiences, and I put more words around them, I began to understand there are many levels to the meaning of justice. And I think our world has really settled into the most primal space… where justice is punishment.

I don’t believe that to be efficient. I don’t believe that to be what was intended.

The symbol for justice is scales. And what do we want from a scale, but balance right. 

Justice is balance. 

We are talking balance on all levels of existence, right? Beginning right here with us. Deepak Chopra asked me one time and I’ll tell you what, I was infuriated, he asked me how long it had been since I was last physically hurt.

I said, I was 17.  He said, so who was responsible for all those years from 17 to today? 

Justice starts right here with personal responsibility.

Being aware that any time that we’re pointing a finger of blame. Any time we are pointing a finger of blame, we are denying the personal responsibility of making or not making our choices. 

Science says we are given 6 alternate tendril timelines every moment each containing a choice. A choice creates motion or momentum. 

Every Moment!

So when have we ever found it to be true that another human is going to play your game in your best interest without running it through the filter of effects the choice will have on them Selves. 

This is rare for sure…

So justice Is a requirement. It is the word of the day on every level, right? Black and white male, female,  Democrat, Republican, haves have nots… the call is there ranging from the collective to the nucleus of our families. 

So many of us have delt with the lopsided sense of loyalty and justice of the familial support of abusers while shutting out the victims .

We have got to find a place of justice or balance, right? 

Down to the most primal… Who do I trust? Where do I put my allegiance?

I call this place a space of right mindedness. 

Because us being here, is us choosing to play this game.

I like to think of the movie the Hunger Games. Games are about you progressing from start to finish. Games come with choices to make and circumstances to get though. While helping people along the way is important and intended you are still playing the game. The point of the game is still to get from here to there.

The object is to be in the world and not of it.

Being able to stay right minded… Solution based and not lulled or affected in anyway by the chaos or the destructive nature of what is happening out there.

Just like a superhero we bring all of that power here and walk right down the middle. Dealing with each circumstance in real time. Making our choices not affected by the chaos, the destructive nature of what is happening out there and being able to stay in a right minded action oriented, solution-Based mindset.

How amazing would that be to be in the world and not of it?

The game is played here on all 5 levels of being… Spiritually, Physically, Emotionally, Behaviorally and Mentally.

Justice begins with you. A spiritual being choosing to be human is different than a human having a spiritual experience.

A human is Spiritually, Physically, Emotionally, Behaviorally and Mentally all at the same time. HERE!

I love questions. So please, please leave your questions, in the comments and I will speak directly to you. 

I think that for us to walk forward in the world in a new and different way, we have to start really picking apart the upside down.  As we begin to question all we believe to be true we find our truth and that’s what these few minutes are about… A shift in thought. 

I would like to share with you the link to put to book your 30 minute free call. I’d love to talk to you. I’d love to see what we can do to create activation in your life, right here… right now… to get you moving into action, be that moving from a place of crisis, with PTSD or a place of stuck, or a place of boredom, a place of complacency, any of those places. If we are occupying any of these energies we are not doing what we came here to do, right? So I’d love to have a conversation. And as I said, that link will be in in the comments. And I hope to see you back here tomorrow.

How do I turn Chaos into Conscious Action?

How do I turn Chaos into Conscious Action?

What role do we play in turning chaos into conscious action?

I’m excited to be here today. I am starting a new series called “Today I Choose” on my Facebook page at 3:00pm mountain time. https://www.facebook.com/QuantumTherapeutix

Now I love questions, so please if something pops in your head jot it down and drop it in the comments and I will speak to them in the order they come in! I really want to focus on our attention on moving from fear into action. Right? 

When we’re in action we feel like we have control!

That feeling of control comes from the action of making our choices. If we are operating from fear we are operating from an a need to defend.  

I noticed with my clients, once they are out of crisis and they’re trying to live in the world, there becomes a fear that every choice is wrong. That every choice that doesn’t create the exact consequence, Is a failure. 

The lack of Self trust creates a world filled with doubt.

So we have to move into action around that and starts by taking personal responsibility and pride in playing this game. Right? 

Think about this… It’s like we’ve been inserted in a massive video game, we are but one of MANY! Nothing is personal everything is moving in accordance to our choices… on every level of being.

Now the kicker is we didn’t get the instructions on how to play. We didn’t get the information on how to operate this amazing system we call our Selves right now. 

When we are interacting with what we call that, the energy out there we call God, Creator or Universe clarity is a top priority. 

I truly believe there are universal laws that just cannot be disproven. 

As above so below. 

When we interact with that we have to be clear. We have to be very clear on how we’re showing up. 

What do We do? And how do we do it?

What words are you using? What actions are you taking .

Being as consistent as possible in those choices, right? Creates a trajectory of energy.

It requires a huge level of personal responsibility, again, on all five levels of our being. 

Energetically, Physically, Emotionally, Behaviorally, and Spiritually.

We have been dealing with the effects of suffering and trauma in one aspect of our being at a time.

  • We have the doctor for this physical illness or that, right? 
  • The psychologist or therapist for this emotional disturbance or behavioral shifts. 
  • Spiritually, where at our priest or spiritual leader.
  • We are at energy healer after energy healer

Most often we wear one of these hats at a time. 

I don’t know how often I hear: I’m on my spiritual path. Or… is that spiritual? 

To turn chaos into conscious action here’s what I want to want us to drink in. Unless all five of these aspects of your being are in integrity, working in one direction it’s not real. 

The game is played here. 

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Here is where we’re being tested.  Here is where we’re moving forward. OR standing still. The rest is just an idea. And the big question becomes is it your idea or someone else.

I call this the baby Buddhist stage. We learn how to interact with life in a different way.

One of the most beautiful things I can observe as my clients move into wholeness is action. Life starts becoming active, right? People that are struggling to have a place to live are moving into homes. They get jobs. 

Life is shifting and changing before them because their choices are different. 

How do you turn Chaos into Conscious Action?

Show up differently!

We can’t expect to show up in the same way and expect different actions in front of us. The game is always being laid out in front of us in response to our choices. Just like a movie plot.

Science says that for every moment (90 seconds) we have an array of six choices before us or tendral timelines.

So when we’re pointing our fingers and blame, we are really angry because we know we didn’t make that choice. Opportunities slipped by???

The goal in all of this? To walk forward in the world but not be of the world.

It’s us being spiritual 24 seven…

as we’re being physical, as we’re being emotional, as were operating from our intellect. And as our behaviors are showing up, right? We’re not operating in one aspect or the other. 

And what I really want you to drink in at this point is only you can change can change you. Nobody else can do it and you have no power in changing someone else.. 

You, only you, can change your environment. you can change your world… But US together in our wholeness can change that out there… The world!

Because even as we do here, you know, as above so below, we’re always looking to someone to make our choices for us, someone to follow, right. Someone that is going to tell us what to do and how to do it down to how we eat down to what we eat down to the clothes we wear down to that place of sameness that we want the same house. We want a car that looks like the expensive one. Look around every car looks the same. 

To turn chaos into conscious action we must understand… the Matrix controls through fear and the need for sameness.

The game is played here. It’s played in you being you, full out, in integrity, in all five levels of being… no matter who’s in the room. The pope, the president, the dali lama, your mom, dad, sister or brother, YOU are in integrity.

To be free of Fear? That’s the end game. Right?. 

So that you are ready to go play the game. The reason you’re here.  Be activated in your mission. 

Full out. Right. So join me on my Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/QuantumTherapeutix. I’m going to be here every day. At 1:30 mountain. Speaking to questions that show up, speaking to interactions clients are having. 

We’re going to talk this stuff through. We live in an upside down world and we’re here to turn it right side up. Let’s walk out of this maze together!

I would love to talk to you. Hop on for 30 minutes of clarity!


Don’t Forget to leave your questions in the comments below!

Familial Loyalty to the Abuser Perpetuates Trauma

Familial Loyalty to the Abuser Perpetuates Trauma

Familial loyalty to the abuser perpetuates trauma and is the most extreme level of Victim Shaming there is!

He‘s HURT!

Familial loyalty to the abuser is an ongoing problem for so many of the world’s people and perpetuates trauma for the victim.

The lopsidedness of loyalty and alliance. So this man threw away his son and his son’s entire family because his daughter-in-law’s father was nice to him. 


I hear this same story in many different formats on a daily basis in my practice.

As a result, people have to walk away from their mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers to be able to find peace. 

Family! Who’s side are you on?

This undeserved allegiance has to change for our world to be different.

1 in five of the worlds children are experiencing ignored abuse within their homes.

In an attempt to make someone hear me I said to my family… How about on my way into town I stop by the prison and pick up a child molester and bring them to family thanksgiving. Of course there was outrage!

What about forgiveness? He never did anything to you really? Right? He didn’t penetrate you Right? What about turning the other cheek?

Forgiveness should NEVER negate ones personal responsibility for their actions!

Nothing changed though. There was a child molester at our table every year.

He was nice to me. 

To everyone out there whose family is going through this turmoil… Ted Bundy was nice to a lot of people. 

Just because he was nice to you does not negate the fact that he murdered all of those women.

Nice is like the icing on a cake. It’s often masking the flaws in the cake.

You were duped. 

My protest of the friendly involvement of my family with the uncle that molested me was met with… He didn’t do that to me. I don’t want to loose the rest of his family. What he did to you wasn’t that bad. Right?

What is that? Either I don’t believe you or it doesn’t matter to me. 

The blind lopsided alliance perpetuates abuse!!!

Hear me!

When we are cutting the victim out of the family and retaining the abuser what message does that deliver?

Now the craziest part is for many the abuse can be wide out in the open. Why can’t you just get over it? Can’t you just move on now?

Here is what I’d like to say to this… If a woman was raped by a stranger would we be telling her to get over it? Would we be sweeping it under the rug and inviting her rapist to hang out? Is his friendship more important than the damage that he caused to someone you claim to love?

OR would we honor her? In real life it seems everyone would be terrified to have this man around our other family members?

In cases of sexual trauma wouldn’t it make sense to be worried about all of the other children that this human would come in contact with?

Not so often. In many cases the families blind spot leaves the rest of the worlds children at risk.

Often instead the focus is on the ideal of the ruination of a “good man’s name”. 

This way of thinking has got to change!

The after effects of ongoing familial loyalty to the abuser perpetuates the abuse and sometimes outweighs the actual affects of the trauma.

I see it day in and day out. 

How do you rectify the reality of your mom or your dad telling you that your experiences were completely unimportant?

Can you imagine knowing that what someone did to you carries less weight than the potential consequences  that will come to the abuser? And I’m not talking legal – I’m talking life, family exile or word getting out in the community…

The support of family supercharges recovery. To know that you have a tribe that supports you and sends the abuser into exile instead and holds you close. What a gift.

Familial support goes a long way in ones ability to move out of the patterns of suffering! 

We learn in kindergarten that behaviors have consequences.

This knowledge is in big part what shapes our growth and our ability to make wiser choices.

We know this. Yet the abuser most often experiences very little in the line of consequences. So what does he do but move on to the next victim? 

Oh, that’s just Uncle Clarence steer clear of him… with a chuckle. 

Rewarded behaviors continue. That’s human nature.

In reality, the man holding court for her abuser and giving up his son’s family is causing abuse himSelf.

This lopsided familial loyalty to the abuser traps the victim in a very twisted mind game. Self doubt begins to arise. Either she down plays what this person did to her or she stands alone against all that she knows and loves.

Not only is the woman dealing with the idea that her dad nor her father-in-law’s allegiance is with her AND on a primal level she’s realizing that neither of them REALLY find a problem with what her brother did to her. 

For this woman, all ideas of family have exploded AND she is now feeling responsible for the crumble of her husband’s family as well.

Let’s send big praise out to the son for standing by his wife… 


We need more people to cross the line into right mindedness.

When does Forgiveness Negate Personal Responsibility? NEVER!

When does Forgiveness Negate Personal Responsibility? NEVER!

I really want to address this idea that if we are doing our inner work that suddenly the people in our lives are going to behave differently as well.

As if the perspective of everyone you are struggling withs perspective will change with the wave of a magic wand.

The thought implies that in some way we are responsible for their actions while negating all personal responsibility on their part.

This is a new level of victim shaming. Religion put us in this category for eons. If we could just forgive them.

When I was protesting the involvement of one of my sexual predators at family gatherings, I was ask… What about forgiveness?

Well what is real and true is that this idea of forgiveness has perpetuates poor behavior and abuse. It has given the perpetrators the upper hand. They are relieved of all responsibility here in the 3d world.

And that’s where we live. Here on the mother earth with real live people. All of whom have choices to make and responsibilities to live up to as well.

Love your neighbor as yourself runs both directions.

Every tradition of thought claims us to be playing a game… The Game of life!

Choice being the catalyst for moving forward or sideways or backward.

If you aren’t moving, you aren’t playing.

And if you’re not playing someone will take your turn.

How they choose to play the game is their personal responsibility.

I know what is true, through personal experience and the experiences of those I work with, is this thought causes an immense amount of added suffering.

If I could just change enough, they will choose to love me.

Here’s what I know.

Forgiving them does NOT save the children that walk in your footsteps.

Most often there is a lot of resistance to the victims rise into the light. If they wake up and start talking others are forced to look in the mirror.

And here’s the thing.

What’s the old saying? You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink.

When I was at my lowest point, I gathered up my dollars and booked my first event with Deepak Chopra.

The idea that we create our own reality was dripped into my consciousness for the first time.

I was undone.

My brain was screaming I did not choose this. I did not choose to be molested repeatedly.

I did not choose to be beaten and threatened with death.

He said yes, I understand, but you are choosing how you live today.

Again, undone but with the understanding that I DID have choices to make… AND my choices were about mySelf and what I needed to be healthy and strong.

Yet I also grappled with the repercussions that I could see looming.

This is the part the spiritual part leaves out.

I had to come home from the bliss of the Chopra event and reinsert myself into the reality that I had left behind.

And that reality came with the longing for the families I see others have.

It came with the hope that they would FINALLY choose me.

What was real and true was that Thanksgivings birthdays and Christmases were shared with child molesters.

Or… I chose not to be apart.

I’m sure many of you can relate to this scenario.

Either I give up everyone that I “loved”, or I choose to sacrifice any amount of Self-respect that I had acquired thus far.

The definition of insanity is making the same choice over and over again with the expectation of a different outcome.

I do not believe any God told them hey, make this child’s life miserable so she finally learns her lesson.

I do NOT believe that I made a pact with these human to molest me and keep me in line with the threat of the death of my family.

I do not believe that the little beautiful girl had the power to change that.

What I do believe is that HUMANS made those choices.

They chose their 5 minutes of pleasure over the 100 years that child had ahead of them to live.

What I do believe is humans are innately predators.

And we don’t teach our children that.

Again, the Spiritual world bypasses that.

Just like the animals in the wild, humans’ prey on the weak. They take advantage of the old and the young.

Look around.

Scamming of the naïve and elderly is a multimillion-dollar business.

Our children are being bought and sold. Another multibillion-dollar business.

Mothers are bypassing what is best for their offspring to keep her man.

So, for those of you that are battling the idea of forgiveness please understand forgiveness is about you.

True forgiveness is giving yourself permission to walk in another direction. With grace.

We allow them the space to make their own choices with the acceptance that our voice, our courage in handing them back their responsibility may save the next human on the list from harm.

The old type of forgiveness and the idea that they will change if you just work at it hard enough…

Its ridiculous.

Their change is their choice.

You take a bow in honor of their divinity.

You love the being that you know was intended to be.

You breathe into the suffering that you know brought them to where they are today.

With love you leave the door open for something new and different.

You love them as a cell in the body of humanity. (but even here… when a cell chooses to not be in support of the whole of the body… We call it cancer and we do what is necessary to regain balance)

In the words of the Great White Wizard… You will walk away from your mothers, fathers and sisters and brothers to follow the path of righteous.

You gracefully making choices that supports your integrity, your Self-awareness, your relationship with the highest and best of all that is… That’s why you’re here.

 The rest is just, well, insanity. 



Sexual Trauma and Complex PTSD

Sexual Trauma and Complex PTSD

Sexual trauma is one of the largest cancers of our society today, one of the largest contributors, and least talked about population of people suffering with PTSD.


In no other crime is one’s body invaded as in sexual violation. And yet it is one of the most minimized crimes on the planet. 

If your home were invaded… If someone was rummaging through your intimate possessions. Most of us will struggle to feel safe and comfortable and will ultimately move to a new home. 

When someone invades your body? There is no getting away. We drag that crime scene with us wherever we go.

It’s as if someone has stolen a piece of our soul or our life force.

The numbers of sexual violations of children are staggering. According to Darkness to Light, a non-profit committed to empowering adults to prevent child sexual abuse, 1 in 7 little girls and 1 in 25 little boys have been sexually violated before their 18th birthday… and as if that isn’t staggering enough only 38% tell. 

What is most common is that a woman in her adulthood wakes up one day with her world… everything they believed to be true… crashing down. Men she knew… Men she loved… Daddy… Mommy’s boyfriend… Uncle Henry… made a choice which sent her world completely sideways.

The Psyche of a child develops in 7-year increments. The first 7 giving us the default lens through which we see the world. The next 7 prepare us for puberty. The natural entrance into the world of sexual awakening and desire.

A human that has been given the opportunity to grow and develop in a natural way has a foundation of Self-worth, Self-trust, and an accurate inner compass. They have the resilience and integrity to speak and act in response to the complexity of thought that comes with the introduction of sex.

Much like the trunk of a tree being able to withstand a windstorm without splitting while a bush gets blown all over the place.

When a child is introduced to sex at the age of 3… or 5… 

  1. They have no words to describe what is happening. 
  2. They are dealing with a fracture or discrepancy between what their bodies are feeling and what their mind is knowing. 
  3. They are having to get up and quite possibly have breakfast with the same daddy that the night before is getting his jollies touching her sacredness. The body parts that more than likely she doesn’t even know the correct name for yet.
  4. She has to keep secrets.
  5. She’s forced into a triangle she doesn’t comprehend.

She’s the other woman?

  • She has guilt and shame for hurting Mom.
  • She learns to forget.

90% of childhood victims know their abuser. The younger the child the more likely the abuser is a family member.

And this isn’t just happening once… rarely is that true. What’s more likely? This is happening repeatedly over a period of years.

She lives in a war zone that isn’t recognized.

She fights the battle of the hero and receives no metal.

She lives with PTSD and is not validated.

She bares our worlds children.

Cycles are perpetuated.

Integrity… inner strength is compromised on all levels. 

Physically, Emotionally, Mentally, Behaviorally and Spiritually.

For this child fear has entered. With fear comes the need to hide, fight, control or defend.

Complex PTSD… PTSD that comes from childhood trauma are primal fractures. Much like a little seedling tree that gets stepped on, over and over again, it grows in between… split… fracture… leaning sideways.

When fear enters decay is right on its heels. Fear keeps us turned around backwards making our horrors of yesterday into our life today. Our trajectory quickly goes from the flight of a rocket ship to the sideways stepping of something or someone in the shadows.

So, if this is you! Honor yourSelf. You did that! You already fought that battle! Now today you have a choice to dive in and open the doors to life!

Love her enough to hear and recognize her… your truth and know you are amazing. 

PTSD is contagious.

Sexual abuse travels through generations. Unless we choose to stop it!

You can break this cycle so your children can live life with the strength of the grand old oak tree. Strong and solid… Voice intact. Knowing what she wants and who she wants to do it with.

It’s her body! It is your body!

Today you get to choose!

PTSD is not a life sentence! You’re not ill. You’re not crazy!

There is relief for women who are waking up to their trauma!

  1. Listen to yourself!
  2. Validate her. There is no touch too small to cause dis-ease!
  3. Explore what is acceptable for you… what you want and what you need!
  4. The guilt and shame are not yours! You did nothing wrong!
  5. Speak your truth… When your ready! 
  6. You can’t change your mind without changing your environment… So, switch some things up.
  7. Soothe and nourish your body through the water molecule with loose leaf herbs. If you can find fresh that’s my favorite. A sprig of rosemary or lavender steeped in hot water!
    • Rose hip: Soothes stomach muscles and helps with cramping.
    • Nettle: Vitamin A, C, K and magnesium, phosphorus, potassium and sodium, contains all essential amino acids, helps with inflammation.
    • Lavender: Helps improve sleep, helps skin blemishes, natural pain reliever, reduces blood pressure and heart rate, helps relieve hot flashes, anxiety and overwhelm.
    • Lemon balm: Digestion problems, helps with upset stomach, bloating, intestinal gas, vomiting and colic, great for pain relief, cramps, headaches. Aids in relief from mental disorders, including hysteria and melancholia.
    • Jasmine: Headaches, sunburns, rashes, irritability, sexual problems heat exhaustion and sunstroke, pain, anxiety, depression and uterine problems.
    • Red raspberry: Vitamins B, C, and E which are helpful for their immune properties and boosts energy High in magnesium, potassium and iron helps with skin irritations.
    • Skull cap: Anxiety and nervous tension. Insomnia and sleep disorders soothes symptoms of withdrawal from drugs and alcohol, helps with menstruation.
    • Rosemary: Antioxidants and anti-inflammatory compounds. Improves digestion, enhances memory and concentration, neurological protection, prevents brain aging.

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